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A lady aged 47 yrs. consulted me for the uterine fibroid with profuse
bleeding on 20.2.2003.
D: So tell me about you.
P: I have the problem of profuse bleeding
since my first menses. I also have three fibroids since the
last three years. On the second day the bleeding is too much. I
am not feeling that strong though I want to do so many things.
D: How this is bothering you overall? What is the feeling
about this?
P: The pain, weakness and the bleeding is so much…I
have to urinate very often and each time I go to the bathroom I
feel the clots going. Sometimes they are clots, sometimes they are
like mucus and on the 2nd day invariably since last 4-5
years, I am feeling pure blood going, no mucus, no clots, just blood.
D: How does this problem bother you?
P: I can’t do anything. If I am going to bleed so
much, I am afraid that I’ll stain my clothes and I am afraid every
now and then I’ll have to visit the bathroom. I feel very tired.
My backache, legs aching…I feel very weak, very weak. It doesn’t
mobilize me. It makes me completely
crippled and I hate that feeling because I always
like to be alert. I always want to be in charge of…at least not
the situation around, I should be in charge of myself at least.
There is a lot of pain; lot of… I won’t say lethargy but
it holds me back from doing anything. So I want my
menopause to come.
[The chief complaint does not mobilize
her and completely cripples her. And then she spontaneously talks
about her need to be alert and always in charge of the situation
(in general). Thus, here she moves from the local (chief complaint)
phenomenon to the general.]
D: In charge of myself…tell about it.
P: I don’t want to be bedridden. I don’t want
to be bogged down by anything. When I am doing something
I have to be in charge. Even when he (husband) is driving the car,
I feel that I have to be awake. I must know what’s going
on and what’s happening. I get invited all over the world. We were
going to South Africa we were in the plane- now even before the
pilot could detect that there is some fault in the plane, I told
my husband that the flaps of the wings are not opening and the plane
is retarding. There is some problem and it was true. I don’t
know even if I don’t want to be alert I am a bit too alert. That’s
my problem.
[She
wants to be in charge and alert all the time. She does not want
to be bogged down by anything. “Bogged down” is the opposite of
being in charge and alert all the time.]
D: What do you mean by this too alert?
P: Even when I am meeting people, traveling around,
I know what’s happening around. I know exactly how this person is.
When I am in a party or in a conference, I know where is this person
coming from. Is he a good person or bad person. Sometimes
I myself don’t like to be so alert. In the plane unnecessarily I
was the one who detected it earlier than the pilot that the plane
is retarding, the wings flaps are not opening…Why should I be so
alert? But that’s the way I am.
D: What is the feeling of being too much in charge of
yourself, being too much alert?
P: If I am in a party or traveling alone or with
people of same profession, people drink, relax. I will never touch
it. Only if I am with my husband I take some wine…little bit because
I don’t want to be just you know… I have to be alert.
I have to be in charge. I cannot let myself go. I
have very strong values of do’s and don’ts. I will not touch anything
if I am without my husband in a party. Even If I am traveling abroad
even when it is terribly cold and I know that wine may help me,
I will not touch it. I have to be alert. I have to be awake,
alert, and fine. I never like to loosen-up…let myself go… It doesn’t
agree with my system.
D: So what’s that feeling of being in charge?
P: There are lots of women who come with us. They
will drink, laugh, sit till late but I won’t do that because I feel
it’s wrong. I like to be friendly with people but I have to maintain
that distance whoever it is. I have to reach my room on time.
It’s not that I am time bound or disciplined but I don’t like it
when people start controlling you. You are drunk, laughing,
joking. That’s not the way I like. I don’t like anybody doing that.
[She does not like being controlled or
bogged down by others.]
D: Tell me about this feeling of people controlling your
life.
P: My mother is a very subdued person. She
has let people dictate her all the while and I was taught
as a good Indian girl when I was married – ‘listen to your elders,
don’t back answer them, don’t contradict them, do as they tell you’.
While I am a very independent minded person
and I never disrespect anybody but I don’t like anybody controlling
my life or getting too overpowering with me because I will
never do that to anybody else. So when I got married, it is a very
conservative background. So ‘don’t do this, don’t do that. Why you
did that?’ Till sometime I am fine with all these. I will endure
it. I can take a lot of it but after a point there is no compromise.
I just shut that person off. One fine day I will tell
those people ‘do not interfere in my life because
I have never done it with anybody’.
[Mother has allowed
people to dictate her. Her sensitivity is reflected through her
mother’s nature. She is independent and does not like anyone to
control or overpower or interfere in her life. We need to understand
the sensation behind all these feelings.]
D: So tell me what is the feeling of not being in charge,
not being in control when people are overpowering you…What is that
feeling?
P: Very frustrating. I feel completely bogged
down. I feel somebody is just (H/G – hand straight catching the
neck tightly, extending neck with eyes rolled up) strangulating
me (deep sigh) but that is good upbringing…
[The sensation behind these feelings is
that of somebody just strangulating her. This she even expresses
with a strong hand gesture.]
D: Just tell about this ‘somebody is…’
P: I feel that I am locked in a room (H/G –
hands coming close to each other) and I have to go out (H/G – widening
arms), I have to gather fresh air. (Deep inspiration) I have to
breath fresh air, take a deep breath and be on my own, be the way
I am (catching her T-shirt). I don’t believe that one has
to go to ceremonies and attend functions. Be honest. 100%
honesty and 100% loyalty to the person you love. These things
don’t matter.
D: Tell about feeling of strangulated.
P: It’s not more strangulation but I feel as
if I am locked in a room. When people start saying that
in this occasion you have to wear these clothes and put a big tikka
(a religious mark in the middle of the forehead that signifies that
woman is married.) and come do everything but don’t do anything
that you don’t mean it. Don’t be hypocritical. Don’t cheat people
even in social relationships and don’t dominate others.
(H/G – 2 fists). I feel as if I am locked in a room and I
must get out (H/G - 2 hands widening) and breathe fresh air. I
may look modern with my haircut, but I have very strong values.
[She talks
about a situation where she is asked to wear particular outfits.
The feeling associated with it again is of being dominated. She
gives the same image of being locked in a room where she must come
out to take fresh air.]
D: We
will go back to this feeling of strangulated and feeling of locked
in a room and want to be free of that. Bit more about it.
P: Well everyone in his family, the society that
I live in, they know that my FIL(Father-in-law) is an extremely
difficult person. He is a little eccentric and too dominating. My
MIL(Mother-in-law) is not eccentric; she is a very calculative,
cunning woman and very dominating. 7 years we lived together
I used to feel I am locked in a cage with...(Pause)
because my FIL is very eccentric…with some mad person or some
mad animal. You know wherever you go, in a cage you can’t run out.
At the most you can hide here or there but he is going to be everywhere.
So 7 years of staying together was hell.
[She
is reflecting her perception about domination through the description
that she gives about the FIL and MIL. Again giving the same image
of being locked in a cage.]
D: So your FIL is like what you said a mad animal or
something…
P: Yes, because he is completely eccentric.
You know like a mad man or a mad animal… I am sorry to say but I
am very frank. I have no relationship with him since last 4 years
but he is the man who drinks too much. He talks the most abusive
language. Language you cannot hear, language I won’t like my child
to hear and when we were staying together my son was 2 years old.
So all the time I had to protect my son from him. So that
he (son) doesn’t get any bad influence of my FIL. My MIL
has been very calculative, very scheming, money minded.
[She wanted to protect her child from
her FIL.]
D: Just little bit more about this mad animal.
P: He is huge. He talks rubbish nonsense,
abusive language, and drinks. So it’s not a trait of a human
being. It’s not refineness. It’s not how a matured 70-year-old
man should be. So I mean it’s not human. It’s very animalistic.
It is disgusting.
D: So we will go back to that little bit more about that
feeling of being locked in a room and like locked in a cage. Tell
more about it.
P: Yes, this is the feeling, which I always
get with people who talk too much, who are negative, who try to
impose their views on me. I just want to break away from that
relationship, from that atmosphere. Go out and breathe fresh air.
I cannot bear such people.
[She further generalizes this image
by saying that this is the feeling that I always get when people
try to impose their views on me.]
D: As if you are in a…?
P: Cage or in a blocked room where I cannot
breathe. There are no windows, nothing. I am the person who wants
a fresh air, lot of freedom, lot of honesty. Lot
of fresh air. I am not a person will be tied down (H/G – 2 fists
coming close to each other) by hypocrisies traditions, lies, manipulating
other persons, cheating persons in relationship.
I cannot manipulate and talk. I have to talk straight and frank.
If a person is troubling me and the relationship is not working,
put it to an end. I have the talent. I have the potential to work
extremely hard. I don’t want to be (H/G – fist) crushed or
bogged down by people who are negative and who try to control you.
There are times when I just want to run away…running on a
beach, running where there is open space, laugh, enjoy but yet be
in control of myself. Moderation… I don’t like to go in extremes.
D: You were describing your FIL, a few more words about
him.
P: The things he would talk about, the language,
behavior, drinking… I mean it’s disgusting. My MIL’s meanness,
calculativeness, lies… I cannot bear if anybody lies to
me. Tell me the worst thing, I may be very hurt about it
but tell me to my face. I don’t like people who lie. I’ve trained
my son also. He’ll tell me the things that I may not like, I
hate. But he will not lie. When I am in a relationship I am
100% honest. The moment I sense that this person is
dishonest or cheating me or trying to overpower me, now
since last 5 years this is the trend, I just stop.
[Again she expresses her sensitivity towards
lies, cheating and she being overpowered. The feelings of being
over powered and wanting to be in-control are coming up at general
areas. Now let us see if the same is there at the vital area or
not.]
D: What dreams do you get?
P: Sometimes very funny dreams and I laugh in my
dreams. I mean I laugh aloud. Or I get dreams like I have my periods
or oh I have to do so many things. I have to go here I have to complete
this, finish this, go and meet there, this one. I have to finish
off lot of work.
D: Any dream of childhood, which you remember till today?
P: Sometimes I see my maternal grandma in
my dream. I was only 5 months old and because of a very bad financial
state, I had to live with my grandma’s house because they were very
well off…could afford to bring me up. So I always felt that she
is my mother. So at times I feel very happy to see her in my dreams.
I wait for her to come in my dream. That’s rare, she expired when
I was 16.
D: Any incidence of your life from childhood till today
which had a deep impact on you?
P: It was the time when I separated from my
grandparents to join my parents because she felt she was getting
old and she may not be there forever. So I had to
start bonding with my parents and that I cannot forget.
D: What was the feeling like?
P: Feeling of separation and the day
she died, I had this intuition. Somehow I don’t know why but I called
at my grandmother's house. My uncle said that she’s not well. She
had a heart attack. I knew something is wrong. I rushed there and
she had already passed away so that I cannot forget.
[She
talks a lot about, loyalty to family, bonding with family. Also
the incident, which had a deep impact on her, was of separation
from her grand mother and the bonding with the parents.]
[The
reaction to the feeling of being locked up in a cage is always to
run away.]
D: Many times you want to run away… tell about it- what
thoughts come out, what imagination comes out… pure which has nothing
to do with your life.
P: Maybe running on the beach, just keep running
without any time limit. Just be yourself. Just running on a
beach…there’s lot of fresh air, lot of breeze or maybe running
in the fields, open air.
D: Tell more about running in the field, open air.
P: Even as a child I used to travel a lot with my
grandparents. I was given a lot of space. Again this space
is very important in my life. I want my space.
In marriages and everywhere to a certain point its fine but people
sticking together…even in traveling, in functions or in marriages…You
should have space for yourself. You should give others their space.
D: What’s the feeling when there is no space?
P: Again like you know being
cooked up in a room. (H/G – Both the hands coming close to each
other.)
[The feeling behind the reaction to run
away is her need for having a space for herself.]
D: What’s that feeling of being in a very closed space…
it reminds you of?
P: It reminds me of jail that has so many prisoners
together. It’s horrible and you don’t have any privacy.
You have to use the same toilet, same things. I don’t like relatives
visiting me too often. I can’t bear get together. I want my space.
D: When you say ‘you are locked in a cage or in a jail’
what does it remind you of?
P: It’s very oppressive, frustrating.
(H/G - bringing both hands towards the chest)
[She
experiences oppression, being locked up in a cage or jail with the
same hand gesture that she did earlier while describing the sensation
behind being alert and in charge of herself.]
D: What is oppression?
P: Being with so many people and what I hate is you
have to do like this. ‘Now there is this ceremony, so you go and
tie a knot because you are the SIL(sister-in-law). Then you stand
behind her and do it.’ It’s rubbish. Why should you do all these?
Is it for the attention? Center of somebody’s focus ….And maybe
I have learnt this from my son. I like dogs, their eyes. They are
so innocent and they are so loyal… because loyalty is
what turns me on. I feel very happy when I see loyalty in any
form like a dog would be very loyal to his master. In the same
way in any relationship you have to be loyal.
[Again she talks about being loyal.]
D: Any other animal which you like to watch or you like?
P: When I was in Africa we saw lot of wild animals.
D: Which one any particular?
P: Maybe lions. Yes. More so the lioness,
because she goes out and hunts, you know and lion is just
around. I like…
D: Tell me about it.
P: She is very protective for her cubs. Like I am
very protective (H/G – 2 hands coming close to each other) and
very attached with my son. I mean… I am so attached to him that
I make sure even if I am going abroad, I will make him comfortable,
cook for him. I make all the arrangements possible before
I leave. I have to call him up at least once or twice
a day to see that he is fine at least. I am trying to detach now.
So much attention is not good…
D: What else?
P: My mother being a very subdued person,
since the childhood I was a little different from my relatives so
whenever a relative would try to find faults with me, she didn’t
have guts to protect me – ‘you shut up. This is how my daughter
is’. You know which I have. If my son is wrong, yes I will reprimand
him but if somebody says something about my son, which is not true,
I will take it up very seriously.
D: What else about lioness you like?
P: Boldness, fearlessness, she has certain loyalty,
a bond (H/G - one fist in other hand’s palm) with the family, with
her cubs, with the lion more that anything its boldness.
When she goes hunting in the wild, she is protective,
loyal…
D: And not very alert but…
P: She is very alert… yes she
is extremely alert. That’s the point, which I missed. Lot
of time I can make out from people’s lips what they are saying and
90% of times I am really at it… I mean I am too close to it. Yes
she is alert.
D: In what way?
P: Meaning if you may be talking about me or
not, from lip movements or body language, I can make it out what
you are talking. If I am on the phone, I may be taking down
notes most of the times when I interview on the phone, I have
to be very alert because I cannot miss if I am quoting somebody.
I can be sued for that if I misinterpret or misspoken. So I am
very alert when taking down the notes but at the same time
I know what’s happening behind me. I know what’s happening in the
other room.
[While describing
about lioness, she describes the very same qualities that she has
been talking about herself till now…like being too alert, bold,
loyal, protective about its cubs etc. Also while describing about
lioness, she talks about herself in between and spontaneously relates
herself to the qualities of lioness. She constantly interchanges
herself with the description of lioness. Thus identifying herself
with lioness.]
D: In what way the lioness is alert?
P: When she goes hunting, she can sense that there
is an animal around and once she is chasing the animal,
she has to be alert and she has to concentrate. She cannot
let go. When I chase up my work… I wanted to write
for Bombay times… come what may, people stop me, people put hurdles,
people talked about me but I said no… if I am good, I have to write.
Let me see who stops me and why… I have to make it happen. Even
if a person has misunderstood me, I have to call that person up
and tell him why he has done this. If there is some communication
gap, I don’t have any fear for talking to people and talking straight.
I am not scared that that person will insult me. If that is the
misunderstanding, it will get cleared. It doesn’t hurt me.
[The
characteristic here is she is using same words for herself that
she uses to describe a lioness. ‘I chase my work…’ thus relating
herself with the chase of a lioness.]
D: To peruse you have to be very alert and ... so how
you compare this with the lioness?
P: Like when she pursues you know like…
when she goes hunting, she is at it. She will not be distracted,
no matter what. But more than that quality I admire her boldness.
One has to be bold. I like people who are bold, who are frank and
who are forthright. I can’t bear people who cheat, manipulate and
lie. It happens in everyday life. People do it all the while.
Women do it all the time. Hence I don’t like women. I don’t like
to be friendly with women. That small and mean talk I don’t like.
D: What else about this wild animal you are talking about
- what else about it you admire the most?
P: Well…. The freedom she has, the open space.
That is what I admire.
D: Tell about it. Little bit more.
P: Well she, the lioness is not curbed and
bogged down by the rituals and traditions and social norms, all
that stupid lies that we have created for ourselves. They
are true to themselves. This is their nature. They are wild. They
are meant to be that way. They don’t put on an act – ‘no no, no
I am not like this actually… I am like this, you know’. They are
transparent. They are what they are. You see any wild animal
for that matter. Like Human beings they don’t create a false notion
about themselves, ‘oh! I am so good you know and I am pure and I
fast 10 times in a month you know…’ They are pure. They are what
they are. Hats of to their beauty…
D: What else about it you like the most?
P: I admire for the open space they have.
Another very not traumatic but very strange experience I had in
childhood that 5 months when I was baby, I was left with my grand
mother in a huge bungalow with a big garden, open spaces and
then when I have to go and live with my parents. It was such complete
change in one room kitchen, in a chawl (a street). I learnt to socialize
there but from that big bungalow and garden and open space
it was a sudden…
[While describing about a lioness, she
starts describing about an incident that had a deep impact on her.
Again showing her need to have space.]
D: What you compare this with?
P: Well like you have stories from rags to riches,
I was happy with my parents. I don’t complaint because I had to
bond with them it was very important that I go and stay with
them in that chawl (a street) but the space you see….
D: It’s like a wild animal is put into a…?
P: Cage again yes, but still I had some wonderful
experiences there. I learnt to bond with my parents.
[In
this incident also she has the same feeling of being locked in a
cage. Again she mentions about the bond in the relations.]
D: Now you remember any dream of your childhood which
had come up or which used to come recurrent or once but it is still
there in your mind…
P: Yes, I always used to dream of going somewhere
out of India and there was this beautiful pink building
and beautiful pink bungalow and a beautiful road … winding road
and something that’s all but this dream has recurred several times.
D: What were you feelings associated with this dream?
P: A very special feeling… very happy… normally my
dreams are very happy dreams and this is beautiful bungalow lovely
pathway lot of trees that what I have dreamt couple of times.
P: Again I have this feeling of being in a cage or
a prison when I have my periods because of this heavy bleeding I
get the same feeling.
[At
the level of the chief complaint also she gets the same feeling
of being locked in a cage.]
D: Describe this cage feeling more.
P: All the time I feel, the moment this is over, I will
just go out in fresh air …may be we will go to beach or some place
get out. And the only person who I don’t feel should give me
space is my husband. Because he gives me my space. He
doesn’t enforce himself on me…
D: A bit more about it? Anything else which you are sensitive
to?
P: No sensitivity. Yeah even this jewelry…
I feel it is a kind of bandhan (restriction). Wear this,
wear that and then get scared that somebody will loot me… I hate
it. I don’t like wearing chains and bangles. If I am in a
mood and nobody has told me to wear, I will definitely wear but
I should feel like. It doesn’t speak of my status or my intelligence
at all. I hate it. I feel it’s like hard wear. If I am to
wear jewelry or traditional things to please somebody and prove
that I am worth, is cheating. It doesn’t impress me at all. It makes
me very unhappy and out of place if I wear lot of things…
because again it’s not freedom. I feel a locked up feeling. Just
get rid of all these things… be yourself maybe. That is what I like
about animals also. Wild animals…they don’t need help of jewelry
to prove their worth. They don’t have to prove anybody.
They know what they are. Simplicity maybe scores over others.
I have seen very silly women wearing the best of jewelry, they open
their mouth and they make complete hash of everything or they
are very wicked from the inside. When I see such women I feel as
if it’s a wicked cat wearing all these and sitting there. You have
in cartoon films very wicked looking cats wearing diamonds and all.
Scheming little cats. Unless you can bear these things and
be very honest it will beautify you even more.
[Even wearing jewelry gives her the feeling
of restriction and being locked up. Women wearing the jewelry, reminds
her of a wicked cat.]
D: Tell me about cats.
P: I don’t like cats. I hate them.
Sorry I remembered it now because I feel they are very scheming
and they are not loyal. I associate such women with
cats, never bitches because bitches are more honest. It’s
a catty nature and I hate it.
D: Anything else?
P: No. I like to dress up very well but it should
not be imposed on me and regimented just because this ceremony
is there and I have to wear this. You leave me alone…there
will be hundreds of women but I will be dressed very differently
and classily and I am sure that I will be noticed more than anyone
but for doing that it has to come from within.
Understanding of the case:
She comes with a
complaint of profuse bleeding. The effect of the problem is that
it does not mobilize her and cripples her. Further she spontaneously
talks about her need to be alert and always in charge of the situation.
She does not like being controlled, overpowered or bogged down by
others. The sensation behind this is of somebody just strangulating
her, which she describes with the hand gesture. Further she gives
an image of being locked in a room and the reaction is to run away
in open space yet being in control of herself. There is a feeling
of being dominated when she is asked to wear particular outfits.
Her description about FIL and MIL suggests her sensitivities towards
animal issues like being calculative, cunning and dominating. FIL
is very animalistic and not having any traits of human being. She
is a person who wants freedom and is sensitive to hypocrisies, traditions,
lies, manipulation, cheating. She always wants to protect her son
from the FIL.
She also talks a
lot about loyalty to family, bonding with family while narrating
about the incident of separation from grandparents. This suggests
about the sub kingdom mammals.
Further she expresses
her need to have space. The sensation with all this is of strangulation
and oppression. Further she talks about being loyal in relationships
by giving an example of dog. She expresses her liking for wild animals
esp. lioness. She constantly interchanges herself with the description
of lioness. She easily relates herself to the qualities of a lioness
like having a bond with the family, with her cubs, being protective
about her cubs, being too alert, bold, loyal, etc. She uses the
very same words for herself that she has used to describe about
lioness. This is suggestive of the family Felidae as she identifies
herself with lioness at every stage of the description. At the
end she even spontaneously talks about her chief complaint where
she again gives the same image of being locked in a cage. Also she
describes her sensitivity to wear jewelry where she feels a kind
of restriction, no freedom and feeling of being locked in a cage.
Again spontaneously relating this to the wild animals and the freedom
that they experience. Women wearing the jewelry, reminds her of
a wicked cat. She further describes about her hatred for cats and
its nature.
MAIN THEME OF THE CASE:
Feelings:
Overpowered
Bogged down
Crushed
Crippled
Loyalty
Honesty
Delusion:
Locked in cage
In jail, prison
Locked in cage with mad animal
Locked in a room
Sensation:
Strangulation
Oppression
Gesture:
Of strangulation and oppression
Reaction:
Alert
In-charge
Run in open space, in open fields
Breathe fresh air
She wants to run in open space but yet with being in control
of herself.
She wants to be in control all the time.
Miasm: Cancer
Animal words in the case:
Calculative
Cunning
Dominating
Space
Mammal words in the case:
Togetherness
Oneness with family
Group
Loyalty
Honesty
Protection
Caring of family
THEME OF THE CAT FAMILY:
Sensation:
•Territory
•Fear of being attacked (Sudden), especially by choked, Attack
on neck, throat and mouth.
•Fear of suffocation
•Fear of being pursued or chased.
•Pounce
•Authority, supremacy, strength, power
•Jump
•On the alert
•Watchful
•Vigilance
•Ready to act
•On their toes
•Sharp
Reaction:
•Attack back
•Run away, get out, break away
•Fright and flight reaction
•Pounce back
•Desire to hide
•Running in the open field/open space
•Escape
REMEDY GIVEN:
Lac-leolinum 1M/one dose
FOLLOW UPS:
Two weeks later
She developed terrible congestion in breast with a feeling that
she would get her periods at any moment. Such congestion she had
never experienced in her life.
D: Any dreams you got after the medicine?
P: When I took the powder, I got one pleasant dream
of outdoors and open spaces.
D: What was the feeling associated with it?
P: Happiness. I am traveling again in open
spaces. Very pleasant. Open spaces, freedom, fresh
air…something related to out doors.
D: Freedom means?
P: I feel great while traveling when I am out in
the open. I don’t like to be cramped up in 4 walls
hence very pleasant.
D: How are your complains?
P: Have not noticed any changes yet.
Plan: Sac Lac
Ten weeks from the start
D: How are you?
P: This time I didn’t have any congestion. Previously
it used to be terrible. Now I am nearing my period I feel
very energetic. Otherwise before my periods I used to feel terrible
pain and now I feel only the uneasiness that it is going to come
but there is no congestion and no other problem.
[Her father was hospitalized as he
had a stroke. But she could cope up very well with this stress.]
D: What other change?
P: Overall I am able to do much more than I
was before. Previously 10 days before the periods I used to feel
completely worn out.
Dream of meeting her dead maternal and paternal grand mothers and
father. Was keen to introduce her son to them. Feeling of happiness
of meeting dead grand parents.
D: How is the feeling of being active or too alert?
P: Now I find it very enjoyable. I feel
energetic without being drained and being alert. It’s a healthy
awareness or active feeling. First I used to be tired
10 days before my periods and hence I used to be alert all the time
but now the alertness is more like awareness. I am
aware of the things and I don’t feel tired 10 days before periods.
I am able to take a lot of things. Fortunately I have not
felt depressed ever.
Plan: Sac Lac
Twelve weeks from the start
D: So tell me what is the progress?
P: Much better. For the first time I felt this
kind of relief. Ever since I started menstruating I have never felt
so much better. I had leg ache but flow was very regular.
I mean it was completely under control and I could do my routine
work. That’s the fantastic change and I am really grateful to you.
I used to bleed very badly. But this time it is so excellent.
I have never felt this change in my life.
D: Overall how are you? Now its 3 months, is it? What
you feel about you?
P: Last month had made lot of change. I am
able to work a lot and I can do much more.
Plan: Sac Lac
6 months & 3 weeks from the start
D: So overall since we started the treatment till today,
what you are finding… how are you feeling?
P: The great relief is… I don’t have my excessive
periods. I am again going to Italy. It is going to be very hectic.
I have to be active all the while. That fear I used to get that
it (menses) will come and everything will spoil…that is not happening.
I feel may be now my periods will not come and I will get over with
it.
(Her need to be alert and in charge of herself has lessened to
a great extent. Now she is neither trying to be alert nor in charge
of any situation.
Earlier she used to feel that she only should get the assignment,
nobody should come in her way. In order to get so she will make
her presentation the best. But now she is relax and quite comfortable
even if she does not get it.
Her feeling of being in a closed room and somebody is strangulating
is much better, now doesn’t feel strangled, trapped in any situation.
Energy wise she feels much better and is able to accomplish much
more than before.
Sonography shows that the all three Fibroids have gone completely)
Plan: Sac Lac
After a year and 4 months
Till now her need of alert and active has gone completely. Need
energy level is good. Not experienced the sensation of strangulation.
D: Any dream which you saw?
P: It was as if somebody is showing me a window.
Window to some other world, you know something much better, something
less chaotic where there is more peace and happiness. It was a beautiful
window. Form that, that person was showing me was like an angel
kind of… you know, normally I don’t get such dreams.
D: What does it signify? What that window signifies?
P: It was a better world, a better life. You come
out of all these and see beyond, your usual problems may be…
you can change your life for better.
D: How does it feel like to see that dream?
P: It was wonderful as if I realized that from
the same old problems… I keep complaining that he is like that,
he does like that… rather than that, just rise above that….You
know like when a plane takes off… after some time, when it comes
to stratosphere, there is nothing except…even above the clouds at
that time, it is very clear. Clouds are not there and you can’t
see anything down… so, that is how I felt.
D: What?
P: As if somebody is telling me, somebody is trying
to give me that knowledge. You have to bring your self above these.
You know day to day problems, complaints and see beyond. I feel
you know, instead of getting completely bogged down by these problems…
think above that.
[The depth of awareness is beautifully
reflected through this dream. You rise above your usual problems
and see beyond that. You can change you life for better. Awareness
is coming up first at the subconscious area (dream) – from within
outwards.]
Plan: Sac Lac
(After a year on the medicine, she developed
ringworm infection on skin, which went away without any treatment.)
Now it is almost four years and patient is completely fine.
Author’s note:
Our aim after the simillimum, is to bring the suffering individual
to such a level that his being can take care of his own self - A
level where he becomes aware of his innermost core and reacts appropriately
to all situations without any aid of the remedy.
With awareness, a person experiences complete freedom from his
delusions, sensations and his altered vibrational patterns. He is
in touch with himself; he lives in each moment. When faced with
a problem, he deals with it and solves it. He responds to the situations
rather that reacting.
Awareness consciously leads one to channelize one’s energies on
the right path. It imparts meaning and direction, helping one to
envision the higher purpose of existence.
‘Disease is an altered vibrational pattern and awareness of
the same is cure’. Cure in the real sense is nothing but the awareness
of one’s whole being.
This journey is long and definitely demands a lot of patience and
time. With every step, awareness grows and one gets an insight into
his being, thus enriching his experiences in life.
Case ends.
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Dr. Dinesh Chauhan
SWASTHYA HOMOEOPATHIC CLINIC
106, Dinar Building, 1st floor, 20- station road, Santacruz (West),
Mumbai- 54. Maharastra. India.
PHONE: +91-22-26046245
Email: drchauhan@vsnl.net
Website: www.homeohome.com
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