R: Little bit about this anger and its expression.
P: Something that I cannot control, it’s like my hands would generally get a little stiff, tend to hit.
R: Describe this cannot control little bit more.
P: It’s like the body gets tensed, it’s like why is this happening, why is this person not reasoning out, why this person not listening? So get a little tense, you want hit out, you want to bite or something like that.
R: What is the experience at that time?
P: It’s bad.
R: What do you experience within you at that time, when you are angry?
P: Feeling of hopelessness, what is this I mean I am trying to put in so much effort to try and get you to understand something. I am putting so much effort and you are not doing anything. Where is the logic and where is the reasoning why aren’t you able to?
R: What is the sensation you experience inside you in anger? How does it feel in your body?
P: I feel hopeless.
R: Hopeless is in the mind, how does it feel in the body?
P: I feel heavy here (left side of the chest). Yeah, it feels heavy.
R: Describe this heavy feeling.
P: I am getting it now, I am trying to think what it is.
R: Use more words to describe that.
P: You feel weighed down, you want to just get out, don’t want to keep it, and you are just tied down and just push it out. I generally cool off also very faster.
R: So at present the sinus problem is there, having it right now.
P: Even now see this (sniffs). It’s been there for a week and half now. In the mornings, I kind of spit.
R: It’s there since about 10 days now?
P: Yeah it’s about 10 days now.
R: Before that it was not there?
P: Before that it was very little.
R: Means, it comes and goes?
P: It comes and goes but it’s been there for quite some time, I have not known a single day where I do this (sniffs) or where I don’t clear the throat in the morning and spit out.
R: Something is there constantly?
P: Yeah.
R: Something is there constantly, comes and goes remains there for two or three weeks?
P: Yeah, for two weeks, not three weeks. It sometimes goes in four or five days.
R: You have taken any medication this time?
P: This time I took Cetrizine (an anti allergic tablet) and I took Mahasudarshan kada (Ayurvedic medicine). I generally don’t like to take any kind of medication, I don’t like the idea of taking medicines.
R: Besides this sinus, what other problems you have?
P: Frequent acidity.
R: Acidity?
P: I don’t take breakfast in the morning. Worms are very frequent.
R: And that skin thing right?
P: Yeah, skin. Worms are very frequent, I take a pill every two months.
R: And this sinus thing started some time ago?
P: A long time ago.
R: How long?
P: It started when I was in the 11th or 12th standard. After that, they told me that septal deviation was there.
R: This was about 10-15 years ago?
P: Yeah.
R: And since then you have been getting it?
P: It got worse at times and since I came to Bombay it got really worse.
R: How does it bother you, how does it affect you?
P: My mind doesn’t work. I feel groggy, I cannot get up in the morning, this whole area is like you know (forehead) you feel sick.
R: Say in a month how many days do you suffer from this?
P: It depends. In the last two or three months, it was very frequent. About twice in two months, something like that.
R: These dreams you are getting are not now, this free fall and all?
P: No free fall I have not got recently, but I do jerk up from the sleep which happens only once in the night very infrequently. A sudden jerk like this (jerk gesture) and that’s it. Sometimes of dad dying or something like that.
R: Your moods are quite fluctuating, means you get tensed, angry, all these things?
P: No.
R: Or you are calm?
P: Quite calm. It’s like, you know, like I told you, somebody doesn’t listen, generally my wife and parents don’t listen, then it’s like moody.
R: You stop the other medications now completely.
P: Okay.
R: We will start the treatment.
P: Okay.
R: I think you will do very well over time.
P: Okay.
R: In-between, there might be acute sinus or whatever, any boils on the skin, fever, diarrhea. Any thing could happen, or an injury. Whatever happens, call me up and take only homeopathy. Even if you get high fever, we will see to it.
P: Okay.
R: Then the treatment may be much more effective.
P: Okay.
R: Continue the treatment for about six months. Now I am giving you medicine for two weeks and we’ll see how do you. Then, maybe once a month. After six months we will meet and see what has happened after beginning of treatment till that time.
P: Okay.
R: I think we should see significant changes. I don’t think it will disappear in six months, but you will yourself say that things are much better.
P: Any particular things that I have to note down?
R: Dreams are very important.
P: Okay.
R: The state of mind and moods are important.
P: Okay.
R: Any symptoms that you may have.
P: Okay, fine, so I have to be conscious about this.
R: Yes.
P: Now how do I go about writing my dreams?
R: Keep a paper and pen with you and when you get a dream, when you get up, write it down at that very moment.
P: Okay.
R: Otherwise you will forget.
P: Okay.
R: You are likely to get dreams after remedy.
P: Okay.
R: They will tell me something.
P: Okay.
R: Otherwise, your case is quite simple, not complicated, and I think it is entirely treatable and curable.
P: Okay.
R: Not a big problem.
P: Doctor, if you have five minutes more, I mean, how does it work?
R: What?
P: This whole system?
R: You want to ask more specifically? I can answer you.
P: You asked me so many questions, which I never expected you to ask, you asked me about the meanings that come to me of a particular word and how are you going relate this to my treatment?
R: The main difference between modern medicine and homeopathy is that modern medicine sees the problem only. Like your sinus is a problem, or your throat is a problem, or head is a problem, or chest is a problem and they treat that part only. This treatment does not work in a long term, it’s not solving the problem, it’s only keeping it temporarily under check. But disease is not something that affects the local parts, it is something that is holistic, that your sinus or your throat or your migraine or whatever you have are only local expressions of a deeper disturbance of a whole organism. Whatever is expressed locally can be seen generally as well.
P: Generally?
R: For example, generally on you as a whole being, on every single part and on every single thing it can be seen. For example, suppose you read the news that a particular policeman has been caught for taking bribe. Now it looks like that policeman is the problem. But actually, if you go deeper into the specific thing that happened with the policeman, not who did what to whom, but go behind it, you will see that that issue is not limited to that policeman. The issue is an expression of something that is pervading the entire nation.
P: Yeah.
R: Every where you will see it, in the entire nation you will see it. Go to the center, you will see it and go to the periphery, you will see it. In the same way, your sinus or whatever is happening is an expression. If you go into the experience of that, the actual issue is not the experience of only sinus but of you as a whole person. That was the attempt to find out what is it. It comes out through the involuntary words that you use, gestures that you use. And then you see a commonality that is pervading you, the whole person.
P: Okay.
R: For example, you say in the sinus there is some pressure that needs an outlet, needs to come out. If you see deeper, this expression this is there in every aspect of your life.
P: Okay.
R: Pressure, and I have to come out.
P: Okay.
R: Everywhere, whether you talk of your dreams, the pressure in bladder that has to be released. I go in a train, there’s pressure from all sides and I have to come out. In my childhood, there was pressure from all sides and I was expected to perform, pressure in my head and everywhere. Sarpdosh happened, all the relatives came and put pressure from all sides. So this experience of pressure is not limited to your sinus. It is an expression of you as a whole person, every single part of you will express it. What you experience uniquely in these situations is the same in everything. So we come to that common substrate behind all this, and if you focus, the remedy that has that issue as the main thing, that remedy will treat the disturbance of the whole organism. By bringing down the intensity of that disturbance of the person, the local problem will automatically get solved.
P: Okay.
R: If you tackle that then…
P: Okay, so we are going to try and tackle pressure now.
R: That also. It’s one of the expressions.
P: Okay.
R: There are many aspects. Pressure is the name given, as words cannot adequately express the experience.
P: Yeah, correct.
R: Pressure is one aspect of your experience.
P: Okay, I get it.
R: Second is the build up, then the heat and the fire. There are so many…
P: Yeah correct.
R: It’s a complete experience.
P: Correct. I get that.
R: That experience is your central experience.
P: I was just trying to understand how you reason out what is happening and that kind of thing.
R: If we find a remedy that touches that thing, your problem, we have come to a good remedy. The most important thing in our case taking is to understand this thing. And it helps that you are very co-operative. The most important aspect of co-operation is that you should simply forget your intelligence and logic for the moment, and just relate how you are experiencing it. What you experience is the truth, and not what you think.
P: Fine.
R: You are able to convey and I am able to find a good remedy, we have both done our job.
P: Okay, fine Doctor, thanks a lot, Doctor, thank you.
Alerts
Pressure
Come out, break out,
Push out, burst out
Jerky
Heat, burning
Destroy, dangerous
Build up
Out of control
Crescendo
Suddenly
Volcano
Relief
A Summary of the Interview
Tell me what is your problem.
Sinus – pressure – something is trying to come out – break out – stuffed – push out – throw out – jerky – impulsive – flinging – impulsive – push through – pressure from all sides – burst out.
Describe this pressure from all sides and burst out.
Heat – burning – destroy – heat going beyond – going up – fast and quick – uncontrollable – dangerous – break out, come out – build up – gone beyond – open out.
Tell me what is build up and gone beyond.
Build up – pressure – out of control – break out – building up – crescendo – gauge – suddenly bursts – overheated – throw out – burst – come out – fire, dust, wind – hot – burnt – building – burst out – volcano.
Tell about it.
Hot – get out – burst out – heated – pressure – weak spot – push out – come out.
What dreams do you get?
Pressure – relieve myself.
Any fears as a child?
Performance – tremendous pressure – hot – closed – close on me – hold me down – relieve me. Pressure – everybody around you.
How would you describe your nature or temperament?
Irritated – push it off – throw it out – impulsive – let down – throw things – cannot control – hit – heavy – weighed down – get out – tied down – push it out – cool off.
Analysis
The Local sensation is of tremendous pressure. Pressing relieves. Something is stuffed in, trying to come out. He feels he should poke it and then it will come out, there will be relief. He gives a gesture with ‘push out,’ and when asked to describe it, talks about jerky, sudden, disowning (don’t want a part of it), dissociating, throwing or pushing something out, flinging.
The sensation locally is something hot and harmful, which is stuffed in, trying to come out, break out. It must be pushed, thrown out. This happens suddenly.
Local to general: He relates these to himself: pushing, throwing, sudden jerky, aggressive, rude, impulsive, push it out. He gives the images of a balloon, a pus-filled wound, then something going to burst, where a guage gives an indication of going up. Pressure and heat. They go beyond a point, uncontrollably, burst and come out, destroying. Everything is razed to ashes.
The sensation, felt both locally and generally is: pressure and heat from all sides, rising to a crescendo, and you want to make a way out of that.
He connects with the source – the volcano.
We check other areas to verify the vital sensation. These areas are in dreams, childhood situations, fears and relationships.
In the dream, the sensation of pressure, and being relieved of it, is seen.
In childhood, he had performance pressure, and he experienced it as pressure, feeling “hot and closed” in the ears. “Something is trying to close on me, will hold me down.” The opposite of that is “Relieve me.”
Even in the “protected” situation, he felt the pressure of everyone around him.
He describes his nature as temperamental, impulsive. He throws things, can’t control his temper, feels heavy and weighed down. He doesn’t want to keep it, just wants to push it off.
One interesting thing is when he says; you expect something to be a certain thing, then suddenly you find it is something else.
When you see a mountain before it erupts, do you expect it to erupt?
So we see the same sensation in all areas, at all levels.
What is a volcano?
The dictionary meanings are as follows:
1. a naturally occurring opening in the surface of the Earth through which molten, gaseous, and solid material is ejected.
2. a mountain created by the deposition and accumulation of materials ejected from a vent in a central crater.
What is lava made of?
Lava is made up of partially melted rocks, crystals, minerals and bubbles (volcanic gases).
What is the process?
Magma forms from partial melting of mantle rocks. As the rocks move upward (or have water added to them), they start to melt a little bit. These little blebs migrate upward and coalesce into larger volumes that continue to move upward. They may collect in a magma chamber or they may just come straight up. As they rise, gas molecules in the magma come out of solution and form bubbles and as the bubbles rise they expand.
Eventually the pressure from these bubbles is stronger than the surrounding solid rock, and this surrounding rock fractures, allowing the magma to get to the surface.
As magma gets closer to the surface and cools, it begins to crystallize minerals like olivine and form bubbles of volcanic gases. When lava erupts, it is made up of a slush of crystals, liquid, and bubbles. The liquid “freezes” to form volcanic glass.
How hot is lava?
The temperatures of lavas vary, depending on their chemical composition. Hawaiian lava (basalt) is usually around 1100°C. Volcanoes such as Mt. St. Helena erupt lava around 800° C hot.
Why is lava so hot?
Lava is hot for two reasons:
1. It’s hot deep in the Earth (about 100 km down) where rocks melt to make magma.
- The rock around the magma is a good insulator, so the magma doesn’t lose much heat on the way to the surface.
Lava cools very quickly at first and forms a thin crust that insulates the interior of the lava flow. As a result, basaltic lava flows can form crusts that are thick enough to walk on in 10-15 minutes but the flow itself can take several months to cool!
Why are lava different colors?
The color of lava depends on its temperature. It starts out bright orange (1000-1150°C). As it cools the color changes to bright red (800-1000°C), then do dark red (650-800°C), and to brownish red (500-650°C). Solid lava is black (but can still be very hot).
Lava is more than just a compound of minerals and gases. It has, embedded in it, the spirit of the history it goes through. When we potentise lava, it is not the physical properties of the substance that are revealed, but the energy of the lava.
Remedy: Hekla lava 200 one dose.
The level at which he lives his daily life matches the 200th potency. He is frequently at an emotional level. There is an interplay between physical symptoms and emotions.
Dreams rare
Facts +
Emotions ++
Sensation +
Follow Up
25th October 2004, seven months later.
R: How are you and how you have been?
P: I have been fine, I had again picked up a about five days ago, heavy mucus and ears are a little blocked. The colds are different from what they were earlier, so it’s not much of a mess.
R: How they are different?
P: I don’t get pains here (infra orbital region, forehead) like I used to get earlier; that choked up feeling. It’s nice. The cold is there, but there is no impediment in getting up early or going to work. That kind of discomfort in doing any work is not there. Otherwise, this facial thing went off after the last dose. For the first four or five days there was marked improvement on the face. Then slowly it started again. I don’t know the particular pattern. But they come and go, and to certain extent they spread out, but its not like the white patch which would scale out. To a certain extent, it is reduced. But the area affected is larger, like small patches spread over now.
R: What is happening?
P: After bath if I rub there is white powdery kind of thing coming then its fine but if I don’t rub after bath after sometime there will be dry powdery kind of thing (shows forehead, beard area and infra orbital area) at these places. It feels rough, inflamed, little red and that’s how it looks. There is no itching or anything but I think its by nature that you tend to rub or scratch.
R: Since when are you having this?
P: Six or seven years ago.
R: Six or seven years?
P: Yeah, but it started with the head, with large scales and then it moved down.
R: And how has this done in the last six to seven months?
P: It’s been coming out. I feel sometimes it is getting better but then it gets bad. I think the hair loss to some extent is getting down, but the scaling on the head is there. It’s reduced now, since the last stretch of medicine. Yeah, it’s reduced in the extent to which its gets affected. That is reduced, but the area is more.
R: How does it bother you?
P: It’s a little different. You feel people look at you when you go for a meeting. You feel people look first look they’re what is this kind of a red thing. If you are in meeting and somebody you they ask you so you are a little conscious about it otherwise it’s no big deal.
R: Describe this feeling of conscious about it.
P: It’s like somebody looking at you in a different way because you got this thing on your face it looks red; it’s like what is this, what is wrong with this guy?
R: What do you experience when you feel someone’s looking at it?
P: In some sort you are worried, people think it’s contagious because I don’t think many people know what it is, they generally are little skeptical about it.
R: A little bit about people thinking it is contagious.
P: Generally, even if I look at someone who has some kind of a skin disease, you are a little careful interacting with them, because it could be some kind of dangerous thing.
R: What is the feeling then?
P: Ashamed.
R: Describe that ashamed feeling.
P: When somebody is looking at you, you could give him 15-20% more talk, then you actually give in. You will be a little careful in talking to him, possibly not come out to the whole extent and talk to them.
R: When you say come out what do you mean by that?
P: Be little free, free while talking equal ground kind of thing.
R: What do you mean by equal ground?
P: Both at the same kind of level, plane and pitch, possibly that kind of feeling. You always feel you should have that clear, no problem kind of thing.
R: Tell little bit more about this experience of shame or somebody looking at it.
P: So many times I go for client meeting where possibly I am sitting at the distance we are sitting or a little closer. When you and go meet him it is very obvious that he is looking not at you as a whole, but what is wrong with you, so you get a little skeptical about talking to him.
R: What is the experience inside?
P: Feels bad.
R: Describe that feeling little more.
P: You feel a little low. You tend to be on the defensive from the start while talking, interacting.
R: Tell this little bit more about feeling low.
P: You feel a little heavy while talking (laughs).
R: Describe this low and heavy a little bit more, just these words.
P: Generally I feel a little put off, little careful while talking to them.
R: Tell about heavy.
P: You start a meeting, you start at a good note. When the person looks at you, now you lose a little bit of momentum, you feel you should hold back a little bit.
R: Describe hold back.
P: You don’t let go totally, you have a particular style of doing a particular thing.
R: Describe just the word “let go”.
P: Just go free.
R: Describe bit about let go.
P: Actually being free (as if throwing something) you like to not be thinking about the consequences.
R: Describe this action.
P: It means running free.
R: Describe this a little bit more, just this action.
P: I say I am letting things go, let things happen as they want to happen, a little confident in that thing.
R: What is the opposite of letting this go?
P: To hold back (as if holding something but not closed the fist completely).
R: Describe this hold back.
P: You would be very careful.
R: Just the action hold back.
P: I will not tell you what I have.
R: Not about you, just the action.
P: Things in hand, under control (fist closed).
R: Describe under control.
P: Not giving things out.
R: Not giving things out means?
P: You have control of this.
R: What is this (closed fist) and this (opening the fist)?
P: This is like I have things in hand (closed fist) and (opening fist) is I let them go.
R: Describe this little bit more.
P: I have these things in the hand under control (closed fist) and I have a choice to let them off, so I leave them off (opening fist).
R: Describe this.
P: Freedom.
R: How is it like?
P: It’s sort of free of things, letting things go out.
R: What else can you say about letting things go and holding things?
P: Personally, I think it’s about how you take things. Holding in my case: I was a kind of free willing person till a certain period of time. Now I am very careful about how I do things. I think twice about doing anything. It affects the way you behave, the way you take things in your career also, the attitude of things as they come, that’s what I mean by this whole thing.
R: I didn’t follow you.
P: There is a certain kind of business you are in, where the attitude is of taking things as they come. Over a period of time I developed an attitude of being careful, holding back, risk taking. This is free-wheeling kind of behavior.
R: What is this free-wheeling kind of behavior?
P: This basically means that you have some kind of backing behind so you can make any kind of decision that you feel, you can take the risk you need to, or require to at that point of time. Those returns are much higher than they normally would be by holding back.
R: So holding back is better you feel?
P: No, not at all.
R: What is the feeling?
P: Of holding back, you feel confined.
R: Describe the term “confined”.
P: It’s like you want to do lot of things.
R: Just the word confined.
P: You are enclosed (as if holding something, a not completely closed fist).
R: Describe that enclosed (gesture).
P: You have been given particular workspace (same gesture).
R: Describe just the gesture.
P: It is enclosed (gesture).
R: Describe this little bit more.
P: You are held in a particular position there is not much you can do, this is your area that’s all.
R: What is the experience of held like that?
P: Experience is purely of being confined. You want to do lot of things. You want to get out of these things but then there are limiting factors.
R: What is the experience?
P: It’s bad.
R: How does that feel?
P: I will not call it frustration. You like those factors, which are restricting, so I wouldn’t call it frustration. There is a feeling of having to do what you call adjustment.
R: Experience of being confined, how does it feel?
P: Feels really bad, feel you would have achieved much more. (Check hand gesture)
R: How would you describe this hand gesture?
P: Like locked in.
R: Little bit more of locked in.
P: Held by certain set of situations.
R: Opposite of being locked in?
P: Get off.
R: When you came last you remember different words you used?
P: Yeah it was pressure and trying to break free.
R: It is the same more or less?
P: Yeah similar kind of situation.
R: Compared to that time, how do you feel about this internal experience of being confined or whatever? Has there been any change?
P: For that matter, it is a little more now. For a point of time, I didn’t have many options in terms of career. To day I have three or four options of doing more and that is where I am feeling this. When we talked last time, it was purely physical, but today it’s more in terms of life and career where I feel confined. That point of time, yes, in my job I was confined. Today I have many opportunities in education and again in jobs. Yes in this sense, I am better off now.
R: In what way?
P: In the fact that I am looking at opportunities and exploring them. My set doesn’t let me get out from there. I mean I am trying to work something around so yes, in those terms there is a difference. But about this you are first asking me, and then I am thinking about it.
R: A little bit more about the first thing you said. At that time it was more physical?
P: When I think about it I described to you what was happening in my head (forehead, infra orbital areas) here. I might have missed it, sometimes I get this feeling of poking something on head, and the pressure would be relieved. That sensation I used to have at that time.
R: That was experienced by you more physically?
P: Yeah, it was physically.
R: Physically you are not having problems?
P: No. Physically I am telling you I have forgotten about this part here (points the forehead), which I used to be reminded of.
R: But you experience that same thing at a situational level?
P: Yeah.
R: But is there any change in the intensity of this experience of confinement then and now. The level has changed. What about the intensity?
P: I don’t know whether I can compare the intensity because lots of things have changed in the last seven months. I have changed my area of work, looking at educational gains.
This is a good sign in my understanding since earlier it was felt more locally and now it’s experienced more in a general way.
R: About the changes in the last seven months, what is the effect on you? What difference has it made to that basic feeling of yours?
P: Let me not stick to this particular feeling but if you generally ask me how I feel, I feel much better today than I used to feel six months ago. The threat of getting that feeling was much more in my mind. The fact that, I am not going to get that feeling, has relieved things quite a bit. I have the confidence that I will not get it.
R: What difference does it make, the fact that the physical things are not happening now?
P: I am a little more carefree the way I live my life.
R: What is carefree?
P: I would possibly pick an ice cream.
R: Meaning of carefree, experience of being carefree?
P: You are bothered about doing a particular thing because it may affect you or may do something to you, or you may feel sick for few days.
R: The experience to be carefree?
P: Gives freedom.
R: What is freedom?
P: Gives liberty to do what you want to, in terms of things you want to eat, like ice cream.
R: What is the experience of that?
P: Feel happy.
R: What do you feel inside?
P: Feels nice.
R: Describe nice.
P: Just nice.
He doesn’t say that freedom feels light or heavy, or open or closed. He does not give a sensation, not even the opposite of the earlier sensation.
He experiences freedom as the ability to live in the moment, free from the disease, which had restricted him. If a person in first interview says, “I feel weak, others squish me,” and in the follow-up says, “Now I feel strong, I can squish people,” this is not a good sign.
Health is the absence of a specific fixed sensation. It is a sensation in the moment. The liberty to experience whatever is in the now.
R: What is the opposite of that freedom or liberty?
P: Confined again.
R: When you say you are examining other options, what is the feeling?
P: There is some amount of excitement at the start, like you can do this, or do that…so you work around those things and you try pushing those limits.
R: What feeling does it give you?
P: Gives you the feeling of being busy on one side, of trying to be on the move.
R: Why was this not there before?
P: I don’t know. Yes, it’s been tapered off with time. I gave my test three years ago, then I forgot about it. There was a phase of one-and-a-half years where I did nothing about these things. In the last two or three months, I have started actively thinking about those things again, like picking up studies. Of course, confinement is there but I am working around it and even people are making suggestions.
R: How does the future look with those confinements?
P: Today, the future looks much better, possibly because things have been handled quite well so actually looks much better today; which was not so yesterday.
(Both patient and doctor laugh).
R: Any dreams you remember?
P: Not much. My sleep is not good for the last fifteen days.
R: No dreams at all in two-three months?
P: Not that I remember actually.
R: If you have to quantify and say from the start of treatment till now, then overall, in your general health, and mentally, to what extent have you come?
P: The main problem I came to you with was sinus, a painful feeling. If you look at that, I think it’s 100% better. When I started taking the medicine, it just tapered off. I felt that you had given me anesthesia. Colds, I wish the colds go away and about these skin patches, I am not using any medicine, steroids, ayurvedic oil or normal oil. I think, it’s in decent control. About this, I wouldn’t be able to put a number to it. This is there, but it would not really make a difference to me, would not really spoil my days, so that has really made a difference. It doesn’t matter that much. Possibly it would come back and matter.
R: It will go now we know where we are.
P: Okay, thanks a lot.
Remedy: Placebo given.
He experienced pressure more at the emotional level. Earlier the sensation was felt in the local area, now it is felt at the general level, but even there the intensity of it is less. The intensity of the sensation had decreased, and he was aware of it at a general level.
A summary of the follow up
How are you and how have you been?
Colds are less – skin complaint – conscious – contagious – dangerous – ashamed – come out – low – heavy – hold back – let go – free – hold back – control – leave go – free wheeling – hold back – confined – enclosed – held – limiting – restricting – adjustment.
The experience of being confined, how does it feel?
Locked in – opposite is get off. Feeling confined in other areas of my life. Earlier it was more physical, now more situational, but still less in intensity – carefree – freedom as the opposite of confined. I am working around it.
Analysis
He begins with the problem with his skin. He says others look at it, and he feels self-conscious. Then he talks of how it makes him feel confined, and with this comes a hand gesture. Once again, we see the importance of the hand gesture, and how it indicates the nonsense in the case.
The sensation here is ‘confined, limited.’ The opposite is ‘free, coming out.’
We hear the same words, but at a different level, at the level of emotion, not of fact. We also hear hope in this, a hope of recovery.
The patient confirms this. He says the local expression is gone. It is now at a situational level. And here too he is finding new opportunities.
The experience of freedom is happiness. But it does not have a sensation. We confirm, then, that the ‘opposite’ of it was his sensation. So it is a freedom from the sensation; the disease, and not just the other side of it.
This freedom and happiness is the dawn of health. It has no sensation, merely the absence of the sensation of disease.
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