18. THIRST INCREASED FOR COLD WATER.

19. EXTREMELY HOT. (1,5,6,8,9,10)

20. WITH FIRST DOSE MORE INDIFFERENCE BUT AFTER SECOND DOSE MORE ASSERTIVE AND AGGRESSIVE. (4,5,10)

PROVER – 5: My attitude at home was more indifferent. Previously things used to affect me very much and I used to cry. I just stopped talking. I don’t care what they are saying; I don’t let them hurt me.

21. THEME OF DANGER. (4,8,10)

PROVER – 4: Dream: someone was trying to kill me and I am desperately trying to save myself. The situation appeared so urgent that I was literally trying to burrow myself into my brother.

A man behind me and he is going to catch my throat.

PROVER – 8: Dream – danger of being run over by a train.

Dream: war and bombing and we are trying to save our life. A tall hefty person stops us with not good intentions. I hit him in his arm with a sharp instrument with an intention that he bleeds, and he can’t follow us. Urgency that we must run before the bomb blasts or we must attack before the person harms us. I was confident that I am going to do it.

PROVER – 10: Dream: I was with one of my friend and some sort of danger people were following.

22. CRAVING: MANGOES (9,10,4)
MILKSHAKES (4)
COLD DRINKS (6,8)

23. COUGH – DRY COUGH WITH THICK STRINGY EXPECTORATION, < NIGHT. (6,10)

24. APPETITE – DECREASED. (4,6,9)

25. LAZINESS – AVERSION TO DO ANYTHING. BOREDOM. (6,8)

Kind of inertia to start anything. Felling was let it go. I would do it but with lot of dullness and slowness.

26. FEARS:

Sudden anxiety, panic, of being attacked by strangers, dark tunnel, murder, stranger from behind.

Physical Symptoms

PROVER – 1

Constant nausea & vomiting.
Nausea < time of breakfast, lunch, dinner.
Ø After eating.
Vomiting – sour smelling undigested food.
Loose motions; stools – sour smelling, pain before and after stool.
Burning after stool. Pain in abdomen comes suddenly and goes suddenly.
SOUR SMELLING DISCHARGES.
TIRED, PROSTRASTED, FEELING AS IF NOT SLEPT.
Looking very sick.
Sweat on scalp and back.
What I wanted to do did not turn up – everything was going wrong.

PROVER – 2

Ineffectual urge, incomplete evacuation.
Skin exfoliation palm – left.

PROVER – 3

Craving for sour things – amlas.
Dream: I see I have a big patch of baldness; Alopecia. There is a big boil on my head. I am looking at the mirror and combing my hair ” see I have this patch.

PROVER – 4

I was hilarious and wanted to laugh all the time but with slightest cause there was change of mood.
Constant anxiety that something is going to happen.
Scared of ghost. [T.V. serial]
Pain in chest – parasternal region < evening.
Severe headaches.
Sneezing with coryza & itching at the tip of the nose.
Pain left supraorbital – neuralgic < after sleep.
Pain in calf muscles with marked weakness
Appetite good but easy satiety.

PROVER – 6

Very sensitive, getting hurt easily, depressed at night. Crying on small things – getting irritated. Would take minor things in a wrong way – feel no one is on my side. Felt unwanted.
Sleeplessness till 3 a.m.
Irritation in the throat and cough
Bends double with cough
Sensation – everything is blocked in chest, in throat. Nothing comes out no discharges.
Feverish, body ache, cold and throbbing headache.

Headache – bursting, < afternoon. > Putting ice-cubes on forehead. Headache increased with fever. Burning with fever.

Pain in abdomen – distention > eructation, pressure, sleep in knee-chest position.

Felling very lazy to go out or work.
Purchased light coloured items, jute coloured.

PROVER – 8

More imaginative, drawing pictures.
Boredom inertia to start anything new. But when pushed for work did it very well.
Dullness and slowness. Desire to lie down. Heaviness in eyelids, had to forcibly keep them wide open.
Headache – throbbing – just above right eye – with nausea.
Nausea < after lunch. There was a feeling that if I would vomit I would feel better or after eructation I would feel better.
Tired and soreness in muscles – just wanted to sleep.
Pain in lower abdomen as if stretched.
Dream: conflict to help family or kidnappers.
Running nose – right nostril – watery discharge. Sneezing < fast fan.

PROVER – 9

Headache – right supraorbital.
Coryza – right nostril.
Confusion about day and dates.
Dream: eruptions on hand – 13.
Small red eruption on the face – very painful.

PROVER – 10

Dreams of dead grandfather. [Repeatedly]
Blurring of vision and heaviness in eyes – had to blink constantly.
Dull frontal headaches. < Afternoon, it increased with heat, > tea.
Nausea with headaches. < Night.
Fascinated by white colour, Snow Mountains.
Boil in interscapular region.
At night while writing letter – felt she couldn’t move the fingers.
Drowsiness.
Sleeplessness – feeling hot – changing places.
Dream: beautiful landscape, greenery, breeze, beautiful feeling.
Physically weak but could do lot of mental work.

PROVER – 11

Hawk on & off to clear my voices.
Greenish mucus balls.
Nose block – lt. side.
Thirst increased.
Foreign body sensation in gums.
Drawing cartoon faces and other pictures, scribbling on tissues in the café.
Memory weak for proper names; esp. of colleague.
Constipation – had to strain for stool, unsatisfactory feeling.
Loss of sense of direction.

Discussion

Based on our proving experience, few points emerge which in turn need to be examined and confirmed by others to understand this substance better.

The correlation between a physical symptom seen in provers and the most important feeling felt by most provers. The persistent catarrh lodged in the throat which required a great amount of hawking and in the process giving irritating feeling in the throat was found very similar to the annoyance and irritation one feels from an unwanted intruder who invades your privacy and behaves like a ‘parasite’ living on its host. It is interesting that the word ‘bother’ came up frequently during the proving.

Some provers along with two supervisors felt a distinct foreign body sensation in the eyes, ears and gums. One may have to look out for this remedy or be alerted when one finds the above symptoms in one or more mucus membranes or orifice.

An irritating rash on different on different parts of the body which is accompanied by severe itching aggravated in heat and an inflammatory reaction in the skin, could make this remedy a very useful one for all sorts of allergic skin reactions with intolerance to heat. However it is worth noting that most insect based remedies have in common, an extreme intolerance to heat. (Apis, Formica Rufa and Blatta in particular share this aspect.)

Some provers had an irresistible desire to draw or scribble on whatever was available. Some doodled. Some kept writing their name or signatures and some drew sketches of faces and figures. This can be likened to graffiti on places where one is not supposed to draw or write anything. One area where one sees this sort of obscene drawing or writing is in toilets. The theme of dirty toilets came up repeatedly in the proving. The sexually perverted theme too came up. This could be a classical combination of how an individual leaves behind cheap vulgarity on the walls to be forcibly read by the others visiting the place and hence deriving an inner thrill from that inner experience. The theme of voyeurism too came up in a big way.

During our concluding group meeting, another interesting theme that came up was of vulgar display of wealth in weddings through showy dresses, over spending of money and heavy jewelry. As one prover put it ‘ jewelry should enhance the beauty of a woman but should never overshadow her completely.’ She along with many others found the need to do just that during the proving. So this is another area where this remedy may be found indicated.

Lastly some interesting quotes from a poem. “Mosquitoes.” That further highlights the finding of our proving.

” Queer, with your thin wings and your streaming legs,
How you sail like a heron, or a dull blot of air,
Nothingness,
Yet what an aura surrounds you;
Your evil little aura, prowling and casting
Numbness on my mind.
That is your trick, your bit of filthy magic;
Invisibility, and the anesthetic power.
To deaden my attention in your direction
I behold you stand
For a second enspasmed in oblivion.
Obscenely ecstasied
Sucking live blood,
My blood.
Such silence such suspended transport,
Such gorging,
Such obscenity of trespass
Can I not overtake you?
Are you one too many for me?
Winged victory?
Am I not mosquito enough to out – mosquito you?

Anonymous.

FROM DR. SANGEETA CHAWLA’S BOOK:

Anxiety.
Indolence – aversion to work.
Del. poisoned he has been.
Interruption < mental symptoms
Fear of death.
Memory – weakness of
Impatience.
Restlessness, walking amel.

Source: the Remedy, Culex Musca, was obtained from Roy and CO, Mumbai.