103) DELUSIONS, sensations, misrepresents his.
Sensations (n) = Experience, feelings.
Misrepresents (v) = To represent incorrectly.
Unable to communicate one’s feelings correctly.
- While telling of my sickness, I feel I am unable to explain what exactly I feel like telling.
- From the way the patient was talking I gathered that he was not in a position to correctly say what he felt.
(104) DELUSIONS, business ordinary they are pursuing
Business (n) = An occupation or profession.
Thought (v) = Opined, considered.
They (pron) = Persons concerned.
Were (v) = In the past.
Perusing (v) = Carrying on.
Ordinary (adj) = Somewhat inferior or below average.
- That the person is engaged in an occupation which is inferior in status, quality, and quantity i.e. position and income.
- The earning is good but is below standard.
‘sir, no doubt I am earning a lot but I am not happy. Because I am a coal merchant and the people do not treat me as a respectable person. I am looked upon just as an ordinary person.
(105) DELUSIONS, possessed, being
Possessed (adj) = Is under the control of some other power.
= Is owned by something or someone else and has forfeited the right for independent existence.
Being = Is.
Feels that the person is under the occupation of some other power and has to live and act according to its wishes.
I feel as if my disease is occupying my mind and controlling every movement of mine all the day. I am not able to think or divert my attention towards anything else except my health. I am occupied with the thoughts of disease all the time and do nothing else than serving myself.
(106) QUIET, wants to be, repose and tranquility, desires
Quiet (adj) = Making no disturbance or trouble; peaceful; free from disturbing thoughts or emotions; free from activity, to attain a state of stillness; by stopping every activity, no movement.
Repose (n) = The state of being at rest; sleep.
Tranquility (n) = The state of being free from or unaffected by any sort of disturbing emotions.
Desires (v) = Craves; expresses a wish to obtain.
A person needs rest and is preferably craving for sleep which he feels he can achieve by suspending all activities and work.
Whenever I get tired, I feel like taking rest. To recoup lost energy which I can achieve only in a peaceful atmosphere without any sort of noise.
(107) DELUSIONS, surrounded by friends, is
Surrounded = Encircled, enclosed on all sides.
Friends (n) = Persons attached to one another by feeling or affection or personal regard; a person who is on good terms with another; not hostile.
Is (v) = At the present.
Everyone around him seems to be friendly and without any bad design.
I don t see anything bad in any person. All are respectful and affectionate to me. They seem very near me without discrimination.
(108) POMPOUS, important
Pompous (adj) = Pretentious show of dignity; importance. Person tries to pretend that he is dignified and important.
From the gestures of the patient I noticed that he was trying to pose that he deserves and desires to be treated as a man of dignity and importance.
Exuberance (n) = A state of extreme joy and vigour.
The person remains over joyous which also exhibits his stamina to live within.
I never find him tired of his sense of humor and joy. Whenever he meets you, you will find him full of fun and frolic.
(110) NAIVE, intelligent but very
Naive (adj) = Having or showing natural simplicity of nature.
= Having or showing lack of experience.
But (conj) = On the contrary.
Intelligent (adj) = Sharp in understanding and comprehending.
Worldly unwise but good in understanding.
He has topped in the university so far as his studies are concerned but is so simple in practical dealing that even a child can cheat him.
Credulous (adj) = Unduly willing to believe or trust without proper or adequate evidence.
I never disbelieve anyone. I trust even a passerby. Many times people try to take advantage of my weakness in this sense. But I cannot change.
(112) MAGNETIZED, desires to be; mesmerism am
Magnetized (adj) = Wants to acquire the quality of a magnet i.e. the power of attraction.
Mesmerism (n) = The act of inducing an extraordinary state of the nervous system in which the operator is supposed to control the action and thoughts of the subject.
Both the rubrics are opposite in sense. Wants to be magnetized, (to be attractive) so as to be able, to attract (charm) others (mesmerism amel.) because it gives satisfaction. The desire is to be the centre of attraction.
The person is fond of adopting such characteristics as are dignified, mannerly, pleasant and impressive. This gives him mental satisfaction and happiness.
(113) BOASTER, braggart
Boaster (n) = A person who speaks about himself with excessive pride and vanity.
Who speaks with exaggeration and pride especially about oneself or something connected with oneself.
- One who is excessively proud of one’s personal achievements and possessions and speaks about them with excessive air of self praise.
I can boastfully say that the intensity of pain which I could bear, nobody else could do.
(114) COMPANY, aversion to, friends, of intimate
Company (n) = Companionship. Association.
Aversion (v) = Keeps away from.
Intimate (adj) = Associated in close personal relation.
= A personally close or familiar association or feeling.
Friend of = A person attached to another by feeling of affection.
Why should one avoid the company of closely related person? It seems he has to hide something which he feels he will not be able to, if he comes closer to anyone.
I don t visit people who are closely known to me because they ask probing questions about my sickness, which I don t like.
(115) ANXIETY, company, when in
Anxiety (n) = Discomfort.
Company (n) = Association.
When in (adj) = During period of.
(same as of 114)
As long as I remain in the company of others. I am uncomfortable for fear of being asked unpredictable questions especially regarding my sickness.
RUBRICS 116 & 117
(116) COQUETTISH, not enough.
(117) COQUETTISH too much.
Coquettish (adj) = A male or female who mixes up with the opposite sex freely without any feeling of guilt or shame or serious intentions for marriage etc.
Not (adj) = Used to express negation.
Enough (adj) = Sufficient for the purpose.
Too (adj) = To an excessive extent.
Much (adj) = Being of great quantity, amount, measure, or degree.
To indulge with the opposite sex innocently without knowing its consequences, but to a negligible extent.
– Is or much (in measure) than needed.
The inclination of my elder child towards the opposite sex is not sufficient as it should be and that of the younger is more than the normal.
(118) PLEASURE, lascivious ideas, only in
Pleasure (n) = The enjoyment or satisfaction derived from what is to one’s liking.
Lascivious (adj) = Arousing or inciting sexual desires.
Ideas (n) = Conceptions existing in the mind as a result of mental understanding.
Only (adj) = With no other one.
In (prep) = Out of denoting source.
There is no other source of enjoyment except concentrating one’s mind on the perceptions exciting sexual desire.
Whenever I come across a beautiful girl I start viewing the attractive organs of her body which ultimately leads me to visualize her sexual organs which arouse my desire for sex. This is the only thing which gives me happiness.
(119) UNRELIABLE, promises, in his
Unreliable (adj) = One who cannot be depended upon.
Promises (n) = The act of honoring one’s words.
In (prep) = Concerning.
Cannot stick to words once said.
I cannot keep my words, not to take any other medicine because I cannot bear pain and delay in relief.
(120) WEEPING, remonstrated, when
Weeping (n) = The act of shedding tears to express grief.
Remonstrated (adj) = One who gets pleadings, protests, objections or disapprovals of his argument. Defeated in arguments.
When (prep) = At the time of.
When one fails in arguments starts weeping to assert or defend himself.
He cannot stand opposition to his conception of things. When he fails to impress his point he starts weeping to stop others from pressing their views.
(121) CALCULATING, inability to
Calculating (v) = Assessing the extent of anything.
Inability (n) = Lack of ability, power or capacity.
for (prep) = Purpose of.
Unable to assess things properly and accurately like mathematical calculations.
I have to educate you about my problem in details so that you should be able to find out a correct remedy for me. Because if you will depend on me for any specific information about my progress I shall not be able to give it to you.
RUBRICS 122 TO 129
(122) WEEPING, refused, when anything.
(123) BREAK, things desire to.
(125) MANIA, spit and bite at those around him, would.
(126) MANIA, scratching themselves.
(127) RAGE, medicine, from forcible administration of.
(129) NOISE, inclined to make a.
Break (v) = To injure so as crack or divide.
Destructiveness (n) = The tendency to destroy, having faith in the principle of destruction.
Mania (n0 = Excessive excitement in action like an insane person.
Scratching (v) = Rubbing harshly something rough over a surface of anything producing scratching sound.
Rage (n) = Excessive anger beyond limits.
Self (n) = By oneself.
Torture (n) = The act of inflicting sever pain.
Noise (n) = A disagreeable loud sound.
All these rubrics (122 to 129) convey, the person’s sense of resentment for something which went against one’s request or the events taking shape as not desired. The tendency to destroy things may be as a matter of habit under the influence of an impulse or faith.
My child will do anything or everything like breaking things; spitting at and biting those around him, refusing to take the medicine, (any other mode of consolation adopted to pacify him) scratching his own body, giving pain to self, making noise etc, if he is refused anything and his wish is withheld.