The laws of the universe are made up of polarities. This is how the planets don’t fly off into the ether and wipe out The Starship Enterprise. Also, night follows day, a growth spurt follows a fever and boy will quite often meet a girl. These polarities create new life, vortexes and Fibonacci sequences propelling us towards growth in nature’s logical formation.
We find each other, and the embrace takes place. The swirling energy of first love. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. My romantic heart, mind and body crave to know the other through a co-communion of every one of my bodies. It is true that all new life begins with swelling and heat. This is the upside of the Fibonacci vortex.
Aloe by Kai Schreiber
All seeds swell with moisture when the soil heats up in spring spawning new life. A morning glory flower will close at day’s end. The lowest palm frond to the earth will die, shudder and peel off the trunk enabling the remaining fronds to live on, for now. This more contractive death march is the downswing of the Fibonacci spiral. Our intimacy en route to orgasm works the same way … up spiral … down spiral … up spiral … down spiral. This is also true for curing disease.
Curing rage and anger is not different. The up spiral is aggression, the down spiral is victimization. Swelling and contraction, over-inflated aggrandizement and its polarity, prey. It is the two sides of the same spiral.
Our relationships are also based on these inherent physical and spiritually-imbued polarities. They are gifts, a universal endowment. God’s loot bag for our being birthed.
In the case of the Staphysagria disease matrix, one person will shoot off like a canon with anger, going from 0 – 700 decibels in under 20 seconds perhaps yelling at the other person. The expression “Going Postal” captures this side of the Staph. energy. Reacting suddenly with an expression of anger so out of proportion to the actual stimulus is very characteristic. They will generally throw things …. up spiral. The down spiral of ‘victimization’ will cower in terror, making herself as small as possible, fearing any notice with terror.
This distinct polarity in Staph. is like night and day. It is true that every unhealthy aggressor must have its equally unhealthy victim. This is not a judgement, it is simply the observed phenomenon after twenty years of research. The whole basis of survival of a species is based on this polarization between the strongest and most skilled, and its prey. Nature doesn’t moralize, it is just the way that it is.
However, we can alter this disease endowment. Run up alongside this polarity in motion, toss the potentized remedy at it and take out its legs. We can also force the hand of its alter ego of Lachesis (guilt and shame). After Staphysagria is cured, it will usually illuminate Lach. I’m only observing the outcome, the phenomenon of consciousness. Again, I’m simply an observational scientist.
In the healthy dynamic, we term the polarity ‘will’ (masculine) and ‘surrender’ (feminine); in health we should be able to easily wield both at the cusp of a vibrant borderland. Our heart-filled orgasm function also depends on it. I should be able to call on either gesture at a moment’s notice. The key to wholeness is to be able to be both conjointly! However, if someone is in a more diseased state they forfeit choice. They become karmically locked into one mode of being either the victim OR the aggressor, then “Houston, we have a problem” — a Staphysagria disease problem. It is true that formerly abused women will typically, and sadly, find another relationship with yet another abuser, even if she thinks that she’s skipped her karmic default ‘this time’ having secured a loving partner.
If this disease matrix is not cured outright, she’ll inadvertently produce the very same ill-fated dynamic as before, helping to create that very same gesture of martyrdom again seeking its very ugly mate. Often, she will subconsciously resonate with yet another perpetrator which will reveal itself, first subtly, and then more overtly over time the more she acquiesces to old behaviors.
I was so interested in this dynamic that I went on to do my postgraduate research into why women are often so paralyzed in victimhood, re-attracting a mate who causes them mental and emotional harm. I’ve studied the phenomenon both in those that have been rapists and those that have sadly been victimized by rape. As a woman, I wanted to understand our etiology as historical victims often burned at the stakes of patriarchal hate.
My research, stemming back to the Bible, finally culminated with the book, Unfolding The Essential Self; From Rage to Orgastic Potency that cited much of Dr. Wilhelm Reich’sCharacter Analysis and his understanding of how emotional and physical shocks become characterological armoring stored up in the physical body. After I’d apprehended my thesis, I wanted to find out what to do about it clinically. This seemed like a natural avenue to follow as a multi-orgasmic Feminist.
As a result, at Arcanum Wholistic Clinic where I serve patients, internationally, we use sound regimen to make the organism both strong and labile (another polarity), and then homeopathic remedies like Staphysagria to discharge the anger from a timeline of abuse or aggression. Through Character Analysis and a more cognitive approach, we help to ensure that the patient doesn’t reinfect themselves again with the old state of mind, reverting to old default patterns. It can be likened to very carefully and elegantly dismantling a bomb.
The expressions of rage can be profoundly deep and cathartic. Sometimes the patient will yell, scream, hit a punching bag, project or simply and more subtly just “change her own mind.” I’ve had patients express deep rage at a suppressive parent by staging their imaginal death on the stage of their imagination. Much liberation can occur from an exercise like that. Journaling and meditations can also be brilliant homework to help raise consciousness of the issue as it resolves.
It depends on the individual and how deep into the somatic layer the depth charge was laid. The reverberations can be a ripple in a puddle or of tsunami-like proportions. Aggressors and victims alike will often have the linchpin removed as we reach deeper into the sequential removal of their childhood shocks and traumas. Early childhood will reveal the force-field where the engenderment first occurred. The key is to be able to effectively hold the patient as they hit the psychic trip wires laid lovingly at their feet.
The force field of hate will be revealed. It is just a matter of time and patience. It will be laid bare and raw for us both to view the original split in consciousness for which they subconsciously decided between victim or aggressor. When the patient sees it, they will choose to change it, and discharge the energy of persecution. The aggressor will show empathy and the victim will step up and exhibit self-compassion and a desire to protect herself (and those entrusted to her) appropriately. It is fair to say that I love this moment of liberation.
I liken that magical moment in session to waking from a dream, albeit a nightmarish possession of sorts. Jesus even said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing. And they divided up his clothes by casting lots.” Luke 23:34. As you can see, here we have the division cited again from a historical perspective. The schizophrenic split between aggressor and victim wholly becomes healed.
Once the rage is resolved, it opens the individual up more for love and true orgastic potency out of a healthier will and capacity for surrender … up spiral … down spiral. They’ll be able to oscillate and hold the charge of a healthier radial and contractive gesture. Reich termed this the healthy orgonome. Former abusers will generally find their more sweet, wisdom-soaked and surrendered side, victims will find their vital drive to become their more vibrant essential selves, fulfilled and more fully actualized; both can now know true orgastic potency.
This is why I re-wrote this polarity from my rage thesis, two years later, into a novel entitled, Sophie’s Truth; How a Young Girl Unfolded Her Essential Self Through Love. For me, I had wanted to depict this healthy polarity between the sexes in the story form of a novel and see how we treat the state of mind more clinically. I wrote it for both men and women even though the main character is female and narrowly misses being raped at a house party and how she uses the remedy Staphysagria to find her essential orgastic self.
You may see where the dynamic of victimization was first seeded in my character’s story. Her parents are terrified that she will have sex, constantly projecting their fears onto her with helicopter-parenting which creates the armored terror Sophie suffers. Eventually, it produces the ultimate prey response at a party one night where she is victimized. A victimized child will just recreate her being victimized in other circumstances. Her fright is sniffed out by a young aggressor, motivated by hate, eager to bite into the flesh of her soft, tender neck by a character I named Peter (the wolf incarnate).